Start Dreaming

What is it you want to do? What would you like to spend the rest of your life producing? You don't know? You mean you have nothing you enjoy doing?

Well, that's a challenge, isn't it? It's not easy to take a step back to analyze yourself to determine that one exciting-beyond-measure-goal. And, if you do know; have decided what it is you'd like to spend the remainder of your life producing, creating, living, doubt popped up its ugly head convincing you there is no way to attain the desire.

It's common. That happens more than it should and it's a crying shame to be stopped by your own brain. I can not tell you how many times I have mentally flogged my brain for its doubt; how many times I mentally screamed at it to shut up. In the end, I find that if I simply ignore it to continue forward, the action of moving forward in itself takes care of nagging, negative thoughts. This may or may not work for you. All I know is it works for me.

In my early years, I was a bookkeeper working under the thumbs of self-important office managers. It was back in the day when having five minutes of fun - despite how productive we had been - was frowned upon. Admonishment would follow then (my) self-esteem plummeted after initial anger at being called out for having a wee bit of fun.

That's what drove me to find that which I wanted to do as a career. I couldn't stand the thought of working for the sake of work. Why do that? So, I went to a seminar designed to help individuals decide what career best suited them. I was given a test which determined that I'm very artistic. Okay, so what? I asked my classmates what I should do with the information. They concluded I should pursue Commercial Art. That's exactly what I did. I enrolled in a Junior College and began taking classes.

How simple does that sound? I can hardly believe the act of enrolling in a career seminar led me down the path, through open doors of employers looking for layout and graphic artists then finally Operations Manager of a publishing company.

I know I repeat myself but I can not help it. I feel so fortunate to have done exactly what I set out to do. I pat myself on the back for having the courage to dream the impossible.